Thoughts-From-A-Living-Person:

Life that is. I have the most wonderful two bestfriends that I could never live a single day without. They complete me in every way. They are my rock and shield from all the d-bags out there trying to steal my heart. I have no clue what I’d do without them making me laugh till it hurts and always laughing at my terrible jokes.

I am supported and loved by a great family. They love me unconditionally. They give me a perfect example of love and what it should be. They are my solid ground. Lately I’ve come to realize that I would be lost in the world without them. I no longer take them for granted.

And the world is going my way. All the negative and unwanted things have left my life. leaving me burden free and making me see things in a different way. What I though was a small defeat turned out to be a big triumph. The new people in my life and the insurmountable happiness I feel.

I’m truly truly happy. Happier than I have been in a long time. Let’s just hope it says that way.

I am just seriously happy.

maybe things are looking up.

where I went wrong.

And the more I think about it the less I will ever know.

I need to know the truth, I need to feel like I’m at home.

Maybe there was no start to the wrong, maybe we were never strong.

And baby this is just another sad sad love song.

stop denying the truth. you are SO blind to it all. you don’t even want to see the truth. things are only in the way you see them, and beside your way, there is no other way. who does that? you make interaction practically unbearable. freakin open your eyes and see that life is bigger than the five feet you choose to see. 

Only if this was in my house.

(via the-gilded-danay)

Just to think of where i thought i’d be and where I actually am. What I have and haven’t accomplished. Its all too much. Even though I may not be where I wanted to be, I’m actually happy about it. Maybe my “genius” plan for myself wasn’t so genius after all. In the end I am satisfied. I wouldn’t have learned or experienced what I have without my plan going haywire. Life has taken an unexpected turn, but it’s all good. cause now i see the beauty and potential in this new life. My “genius” plan doesn’t apply now. and maybe not even any plans apply here. maybe I’ll go on without a plan for once. just let life take me where it wants to, let God’s plan come into play. because I’m tired of worrying about it all. I am kind of excited to see what’s in store though, i know there’s so much waiting for me. but for now, the only plan I have is the plan to let life hand me it’s ups and downs, and for once, keep my head held high and my strength in full force.

why did you have to sit there and lie to me? There was nothing to lie about. Now you’ve digged yourself into a hole that you won’t be able to get out of. You backstabbing lying two-faced bitches. Screw you. You were suppose to be my bestfriends? Well bestfriends don.t do that ish. Have fun being fake with eachother.

you here about such horrific things happen to people, but you never imagine it would happen to someone you know and care about. It pains me to here the things that happened to her. And the tears keep coming. How could someone be soo cruel? My heart is broken and I know it’s even worse for you. But know I’m always here and love you. The lord gives you tests so in the end you can have a TESTimony. The devil just makes me want to scream.

As your bestfriend. As your shoulder to cry on. As your secret sharer. As your fun loving long lost sister. Because I miss you. We’ve drifted, but I never intended for us to. I really need you. You have always listened and held me and understood me on a different level.

  I may have new friends and seem really happy, which I am dont get me wrong, but they aren’t you. I know we’re different and we’ve grown up. But I want to know the new wonderful young lady you’ve become. I need your support, your love, your forever kindness and wit.

  I just want us to one day look at eachother and just hug and maybe shed a few tears. Just hold eachother like we use to on our darkest days. And say anything and everything. I swear I’ll be a better friend. I just need to know your still there. Your still forgiving. And your still my bestfriend.

great,right? It just makes me feel happy from the inside out. I live for these nigts! Ohh the joy! 


NOT! I really think that people need to think things through before they do them!
Ohh and I also love that my bestfriend pulled out her best knife to stabb me in the back. And the fact my boyfriend used his dick to think instead of his head! Ohh goody!

Fuck em! I don’t need that in my life. Screw me over cool,but screw me over and feel like it’s okay,hell no.  It’s funny how in a snapp things change.