Thoughts-From-A-Living-Person:: Archive

It's all perfect.

Life that is. I have the most wonderful two bestfriends that I could never live a single day without. They complete me in every way. They are my rock and shield from all the d-bags out there trying to steal my heart. I have no clue what I’d do without them making me laugh till it hurts and always laughing at my terrible jokes. I am supported and loved by a great family. They love me...

Nov 11th

I'm on one.

I am just seriously happy. maybe things are looking up.

Sep 10th

I constantly think about

where I went wrong. And the more I think about it the less I will ever know. I need to know the truth, I need to feel like I’m at home. Maybe there was no start to the wrong, maybe we were never strong. And baby this is just another sad sad love song.

Sep 6th

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

stop denying the truth. you are SO blind to it all. you don’t even want to see the truth. things are only in the way you see them, and beside your way, there is no other way. who does that? you make interaction practically unbearable. freakin open your eyes and see that life is bigger than the five feet you choose to see.

Jul 9th

Jul 8th

I'm taken aback to say the least.

Just to think of where i thought i’d be and where I actually am. What I have and haven’t accomplished. Its all too much. Even though I may not be where I wanted to be, I’m actually happy about it. Maybe my “genius” plan for myself wasn’t so genius after all. In the end I am satisfied. I wouldn’t have learned or experienced what I have without my plan going...

Jul 8th

really?!?.!?!

why did you have to sit there and lie to me? There was nothing to lie about. Now you’ve digged yourself into a hole that you won’t be able to get out of. You backstabbing lying two-faced bitches. Screw you. You were suppose to be my bestfriends? Well bestfriends don.t do that ish. Have fun being fake with eachother.

May 8th

it's unreal.

you here about such horrific things happen to people, but you never imagine it would happen to someone you know and care about. It pains me to here the things that happened to her. And the tears keep coming. How could someone be soo cruel? My heart is broken and I know it’s even worse for you. But know I’m always here and love you. The lord gives you tests so in the end you can have a...

Mar 25th

I wonder if you ever miss me.

As your bestfriend. As your shoulder to cry on. As your secret sharer. As your fun loving long lost sister. Because I miss you. We’ve drifted, but I never intended for us to. I really need you. You have always listened and held me and understood me on a different level. I may have new friends and seem really happy, which I am dont get me wrong, but they aren’t you. I know...

Feb 2nd

Worst night of my life,

great,right? It just makes me feel happy from the inside out. I live for these nigts! Ohh the joy! NOT! I really think that people need to think things through before they do them! Ohh and I also love that my bestfriend pulled out her best knife to stabb me in the back. And the fact my boyfriend used his dick to think instead of his head! Ohh goody! Fuck em! I don’t need that in my life....

Dec 17th

I love love love love love

My friends so much. <3

Dec 15th

I'm crazy about you,

You make my head spin and my heart skip a beat everytime. You inspire me to be something better. You adore the same things I do, You love the same things I love. You do the same things I do. Heck my mother loves you, and you love my mom. When were together we can’t stop laughing. You make me smile nonstop. I WANT you to whisper those things in my ear. I want you to ignore all those people...

Dec 11th

I'm in love;

With my life. I have never been able to say that, but now i truly am. I have the best friends who love God and are not afraid to show it. I’ve never had friends like them.I’ve got an amazing an supportive family that loves me unconditionally. And a guy that cares about me. It is all very very perfect. Almost unreal. I am truly blessed.

Dec 7th

The beauty isn't just at first glance.

Something beautiful can attract the eye the first time. But there is more than the beauty we see on the outside. There is even more beauty on the inside. Beauty that just awaits to be seen. To be cherished. As I meet people I judge them by how they look. But is that right of me? I mean really. It doesn’t matter how pretty someone may or may not be. What matters is how pretty someone is on...

Jul 30th

Jul 18th

I'm hurt.

I’m hurt by what you said and what you didn’t say. I’m hurt that I’m replaced. I’m hurt that I’m not longer needed or wanted. I am hurt by how this all ended. I’m hurt by how your treating me. I’m hurt how I am just gone and out of your life. I’m hurt. And now I realize things aren’t the same and they won’t ever be the same.

Jul 18th

Jul 17th

I keep wanting to go back.

You know back when everything was okay. When you didn’t have a care in the world. When the biggest priority was to look good for someone. When you were still friends with that one person you aren’t friends with any longer. When you planned your weekends around what your friends were gonna do. When you would try so hard to “perfect” in that someones eyes. When you were...

Jul 11th

When your heart breaks.

Our heart breaks for many different reasons. Our heart breaks for what breaks Gods. It breaks every time we think of a past experience. It breaks when someone dies. It breaks when we end a chapter with someone. It breaks when we can’t see the end of the road. It breaks when you feel unloved, sad, discouraged, unwanted, unneeded, not liked, not cared for, not cherished. It breaks when...

Jul 9th

I hate you;

I do I really really do. You can’t keep your month shut! You became my bestfriend and look what you did! You messed it up.So now he tells me how bad of a person I am? Thanks. And YOU want to blame it on me? Well whatever.Just shut up! You had no need to tell him that! AND it’s all just stupid. Thanks. AH

Apr 26th

It's more than that.

My mission in life isn’t just to do good for others, But to do good for God. To spread his word and become a disciple.To know his word,Breathe his word,teach his word. I want to invite people to the best gift they’ll ever recieve.His eternal love.

Mar 18th

It smells like Spring.(:

These last couple of days have been wonderful.(: Yesterday I had a big shopping day. Friday I slept all day,Which was blistful! And today was a fun day at church. Later my mom and I are going to pick out paint colors for my room and maybe a movie?I dont know.I really just wanna go to the park.I dont even know why. Great mood,(:

Mar 14th

Quite Honestly,

You looked wonderful today. Hahah,I’m pathetic. But on a serious note,I loved being with you today.(:

Mar 14th

My Apologies;

Well I’m definitely not sorrry for voicing my opinion. Just like you probably arent. But I am sorry for taking it too far. I see where i could have made things not as bad. But things happen you move on. And you know what,Danay I reliezed we don’t agree on alot,And we probably will never really agree on anything. But doesnt mean we have to be straight up pains in the...

Feb 21st

Please just come out with it,

Please.It’s all but killing me. I need to just hear it,Please. You act like you don’t care,But I need you to just say it. I do not need you, yet, at the same time I do.I miss you, I wouldn’t have admitted it, But I do. When I was almost on the verge or tears today, you were there. God, I NEED you. Don’t you know it.Can’t you see it? You said you loved me.Then one...

Jan 27th

Only

if I would have known. I would have never thought it, let it repeat in my head, let it form on my lips. Those three words, I Love You. Only if I would have known it was going to make you leave.

Jan 24th

This is what it feels like.

I get a lump in the back of my throat, My hearts races, My head pounds, I become sick to my stomach, My eyes become dry, It all replays in my head, Tears start to form, Then everything becomes a blur. That’s what happened when I lost you.

Jan 22nd

Now You Tell Me.

Tell me if you were to die today,What would you have accomplished?What would you be thought as? Now seriously think about it.Just think. Sometimes we think we have a motive,but we don’t follow through on the motive. If I died today,I know I would have accomplished a life that was christ followed.If I was to die today I know where i’d go.Quite honestly though I don’t know what...

Jan 18th

(-: =-o :-D =-( =¬/ :•Ø

It’s so easy to say hello, Yet so hard to say good-bye. I know every hello ends with a G’bye. But for once, Just once, I want there to be no Good-bye. Just a sweet depart, like when you breath in you wait to breath out.I want to breath in and if your not there by the time I breath out,Your back.Something sort of like that.

Jan 16th

I am Second;

I keep putting myself first.Because that’s what I want. I keep telling myself I’m more important than anything else. In the end that I am the one that watches out for myself and I have no one else to blame for it all. I remember once watching a music awards show and telling my dad,I hope when I become a performer I don’t dance like that.My dad then said something to me that...

Jan 15th

I can't stop going back.

When my brother still lived here, When I really had a passion for my music, When I couldn’t get enough of One Tree Hill, When I had everything it gain and nothing to loose, When everyday was amazing and I woke up being the happiest person, When friends were a constant and boys were a joke, When I made a new friend everyday, When I came home and just ate chicken fingers and chilled on my...

Jan 13th

If

I was to ever wish upon a wishing star,I know EXACTLY what I’d wish for… You.

Jan 12th

Have you ever...

Felt like you just don’t get it anymore.You don’t understand.You are tired of it all. I just feel like that.I for some reason miss the past.I just want to look forward, but I can’t. Why is that? I miss my friends, the could-have-been’s, and the would-have-been’s. I miss the way I felt. I miss how just the little things could have made my day wonderful. I miss how I...

Jan 8th

Something occurred to me today;

That life is absolutely out of my hands. It’s truly a crazy thought,But it’s so true. I know God is the captain to my ship, that he directs it wherever he wants. But it hit me hard today.Wow. I always try to control the way I look and how I act.I try to control EVERYTHING. ‘Cause I feel it’s MY life. But really it’s not,I gave my life up to God a long time ago. Even...

Jan 6th

I must be deeply confused,

I mean correct me if I’m wrong, but YOU said you’d be there until the end. YOU said that your love was wider than the ocean. YOU mentioned how great we were together. YOU talked about our future. YOU had the sensation to be by my side.YOU needed me. I, of course felt the same way but YOU made it more clear and said it louder they I EVER could have. So why did YOU change your mind. It...

Jan 5th

Some of my favorite quotes:

Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life and repeat to yourself, the most comforting words of all; this, too, shall pass. Ann Landers If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things that are missing. If you don’t have love in your life, no matter what else there is, it’s not enough. Ann Landers Keep in mind that the true measure of an individual is how he...

Jan 4th

I find myself..

Finding myself eachday.Does that even make since?I never knew the potential in me.I love how each day I find out there is more to me…More to the way I feel. I just got caught up in everyone else and what they thought and did that I guess I just don’t pay attention to myself.I mean I knew myself but never really knew the deep me?It feels like an out of body experience. Like today I...

Jan 4th

I have to say...

I don’t care for Rap music. It disrespects women and the role they have in this world.We’re not just for sex or for making your damn food.First of all we carry your child for nine monthes,We work our asses off cleaning the house…Or going out and making a living so we can provide for the children you leave behind.We play a key role in your life whether you know it or not. I have...

Jan 3rd

The Truth is..

By me not doing the “Normal” thing and drinking, smoking, and such it doesn’t show a sign of weakness in me or another person,It show’s intelligence. Because if i did give in then my weakness would show. Intelligence is always better than weakness.

Jan 2nd

Have I failed?

I reflected on the resolutions I made for 2009, And half of them I have not fulfilled. This year,I don’t want to have self doubt like I did last year and procrastinate to the fact that my resolutions aren’t accomplished.That’s not what I want to think of when I look back on a certain year.So as I sit here and type this,I make a promise: This year will be a year of no other...

Jan 1st

“What is family? They were the people who claimed you. In good, in bad, in parts...”

– Sarah Dessen (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)

Jan 1st

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2010

why hello (:

Jan 1st