January 2010
18 posts
Please just come out with it,
Please.It’s all but killing me.
I need to just hear it,Please.
You act like you don’t care,But I need you to just say it.
I do not need you, yet, at the same time I do.I miss you, I wouldn’t have admitted it, But I do.
When I was almost on the verge or tears today, you were there. God, I NEED you. Don’t you know it.Can’t you see it?
You said you loved me.Then one...
Only
if I would have known. I would have never thought it, let it repeat in my head, let it form on my lips. Those three words, I Love You. Only if I would have known it was going to make you leave.
This is what it feels like.
I get a lump in the back of my throat, My hearts races, My head pounds, I become sick to my stomach, My eyes become dry, It all replays in my head, Tears start to form, Then everything becomes a blur. That’s what happened when I lost you.
Now You Tell Me.
Tell me if you were to die today,What would you have accomplished?What would you be thought as? Now seriously think about it.Just think. Sometimes we think we have a motive,but we don’t follow through on the motive. If I died today,I know I would have accomplished a life that was christ followed.If I was to die today I know where i’d go.Quite honestly though I don’t know what...
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It’s so easy to say hello, Yet so hard to say good-bye. I know every hello ends with a G’bye. But for once, Just once, I want there to be no Good-bye. Just a sweet depart, like when you breath in you wait to breath out.I want to breath in and if your not there by the time I breath out,Your back.Something sort of like that.
I am Second;
I keep putting myself first.Because that’s what I want.
I keep telling myself I’m more important than anything else.
In the end that I am the one that watches out for myself and I have no one else to blame for it all.
I remember once watching a music awards show and telling my dad,I hope when I become a performer I don’t dance like that.My dad then said something to me that...
I can't stop going back.
When my brother still lived here, When I really had a passion for my music, When I couldn’t get enough of One Tree Hill, When I had everything it gain and nothing to loose, When everyday was amazing and I woke up being the happiest person, When friends were a constant and boys were a joke, When I made a new friend everyday, When I came home and just ate chicken fingers and chilled on my...
If
I was to ever wish upon a wishing star,I know EXACTLY what I’d wish for… You.
Have you ever...
Felt like you just don’t get it anymore.You don’t understand.You are tired of it all.
I just feel like that.I for some reason miss the past.I just want to look forward, but I can’t. Why is that?
I miss my friends, the could-have-been’s, and the would-have-been’s. I miss the way I felt. I miss how just the little things could have made my day wonderful. I miss how I...
Something occurred to me today;
That life is absolutely out of my hands. It’s truly a crazy thought,But it’s so true. I know God is the captain to my ship, that he directs it wherever he wants. But it hit me hard today.Wow. I always try to control the way I look and how I act.I try to control EVERYTHING. ‘Cause I feel it’s MY life. But really it’s not,I gave my life up to God a long time ago. Even...
I must be deeply confused,
I mean correct me if I’m wrong, but YOU said you’d be there until the end. YOU said that your love was wider than the ocean. YOU mentioned how great we were together. YOU talked about our future. YOU had the sensation to be by my side.YOU needed me.
I, of course felt the same way but YOU made it more clear and said it louder they I EVER could have. So why did YOU change your mind. It...
Some of my favorite quotes:
Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life and repeat to yourself, the most comforting words of all; this, too, shall pass. Ann Landers
If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things that are missing. If you don’t have love in your life, no matter what else there is, it’s not enough. Ann Landers
Keep in mind that the true measure of an individual is how he...
I find myself..
Finding myself eachday.Does that even make since?I never knew the potential in me.I love how each day I find out there is more to me…More to the way I feel.
I just got caught up in everyone else and what they thought and did that I guess I just don’t pay attention to myself.I mean I knew myself but never really knew the deep me?It feels like an out of body experience.
Like today I...
I have to say...
I don’t care for Rap music. It disrespects women and the role they have in this world.We’re not just for sex or for making your damn food.First of all we carry your child for nine monthes,We work our asses off cleaning the house…Or going out and making a living so we can provide for the children you leave behind.We play a key role in your life whether you know it or not. I have...
The Truth is..
By me not doing the “Normal” thing and drinking, smoking, and such it doesn’t show a sign of weakness in me or another person,It show’s intelligence. Because if i did give in then my weakness would show. Intelligence is always better than weakness.
Have I failed?
I reflected on the resolutions I made for 2009, And half of them I have not fulfilled.
This year,I don’t want to have self doubt like I did last year and procrastinate to the fact that my resolutions aren’t accomplished.That’s not what I want to think of when I look back on a certain year.So as I sit here and type this,I make a promise:
This year will be a year of no other...
“What is family? They were the people who claimed you. In good, in bad, in parts...”
– Sarah Dessen (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
2010
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