Life's Woe's and Oh's:

I keep putting myself first.Because that’s what I want.
I keep telling myself I’m more important than anything else.
In the end that I am the one that watches out for myself and I have no one else to blame for it all.

I remember once watching a music awards show and telling my dad,I hope when I become a performer I don’t dance like that.My dad then said something to me that I will never forget.He said this: If you are singing for God then you don’t have to worry about dancing and entertaining them,Because it will be for God.Then all that doesn’t matter.

Now you may ask why that matters,Well it was simple yet had every meaning in the world. I never thought of it like that.So I don’t have to entertain because when I’m singing for him then it is about him.ALL OF IT. Every aspect. So dancing around won’t make a bit of difference.

See,I know God has a calling for me,He’s told me. But I don’t know what it is and how to figure it out.But as long as I put him first and keep praising him,It will come.

I want to be looked at has a follower of Christ,As someone to look up to when it comes to being a christen,Because believe me,It isn’t easy. You get labeled and put aside by society. But I will take that for the rest of my life because God is the ultimate source of life. I know that in the end it’s not about me.It’s not about what I look like or what I did or who I dated or who I was friends with or who liked me or didn’t, Who thought I was cool or how many people wanted to be me or how smart I am or how I look.It’s worthless.Because there is only ONE first.

I’m Lauren Girard and I’m not first,I’m second.